Someone pinch me...

Sunday night. I came here hoping that what I felt in my heart to be true would withstand closer (in person) scrutiny. I hoped that nothing I saw or felt while I was here would diminish the incredible love, peace, and, yes, grace, that I've felt for C nearly from the first time we spoke. I never dreamt that that it would expand, grow, change, and spread its wings, like twining tendrils, throughout every part of my being. How could I have dreamt such a thing, for I didn't believe that more than the simple, straightforward, Hallmark inspired definition of love existed? I am here to tell you, gentle readers, that not only does something deeper than mere love lives inside me now.

There is a passage in the Bible which says "When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away
childish things." (1 Corinthians 13, verse 11); this is how I feel today. The girl I was just a month ago couldn't have comprehended what I feel when I look at him, when I talk to him, even when I'm NOT looking at or thinking of him. The change is pervasive, all changes everything. I feel like Miranda in "The Tempest" when she says, "O, wonder! How many goodly creatures are there here! How beauteous mankind is! O brave new world, That has such people in't!" (The Tempest Act V, Scene 1). I look around and everything seems new and beautiful. Now, part of that might just be because this is one of the prettiest areas I've ever been in, but it's more than just the simple beauty of my surroundings. It's as though I experience everything with more intensity, more passion...more Grace. Yes, I'm here to tell you that what I thought passed for grace before was a pale shadow of what I feel right now. No matter what happens, for the rest of my life, I will always know that I have felt real love for someone that loves me, too, and that is, after all, the point of this exercise called life, isn't it?


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