It's over
Saturday night. The moment I'd been dreading has come: I just watched the last episode of SATC. As I lie here in bed, crying quietly, I realize just how much I'd come to identify with each of the ladies in the show.
I want to be as sexy, bold, and proud as Samantha,
I want to have the beautiful Park Avenue apartment and doting husband like Charlotte,
I want to be a successful wife and mother like Miranda, and, perhaps most importantly,
I want to be brave enough to give love one more chance, like Carrie.
I know, it's crazy. I've had my heart broken so many times and huge romances are nearly always guaranteed to destroy you when they're over, but I cannot help myself. We are programmed to be who we are and, for better or worse, I'm the girl with the big dream who wears her heart on her sleeve for everyone to see. While I know logically that it's safest to play hard to get, to keep my heart locked away so that no one can hurt me, that's just not who I am. And, I have to believe that, somewhere out there exists a man who dreams big, crazy dreams, too.
Mister Big (dreams), I'm waiting.
I want to be as sexy, bold, and proud as Samantha,
I want to have the beautiful Park Avenue apartment and doting husband like Charlotte,
I want to be a successful wife and mother like Miranda, and, perhaps most importantly,
I want to be brave enough to give love one more chance, like Carrie.
I know, it's crazy. I've had my heart broken so many times and huge romances are nearly always guaranteed to destroy you when they're over, but I cannot help myself. We are programmed to be who we are and, for better or worse, I'm the girl with the big dream who wears her heart on her sleeve for everyone to see. While I know logically that it's safest to play hard to get, to keep my heart locked away so that no one can hurt me, that's just not who I am. And, I have to believe that, somewhere out there exists a man who dreams big, crazy dreams, too.
Mister Big (dreams), I'm waiting.
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give yourself to the opportunity to love, better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. without taking the risk, u never know what could be... but always make sure you are loving yourself and happy with who you are before you decide to share yourself with others....
and out there is a very special man just for you...who will love everything about you and treat you like a princess. it usually happens when you least expect it :)
Like you, I figure there's a big dreamer out there somewhere for me!
and thanks, belatedly for the plug. i salute you for your continued courage, openness and beauty.
Genius writing, don't you think?
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I will allow him to look like Chris Noth, though.