How to pay a fortune to get a security door installed and TPC Day 2 run down

Thursday evening. I have been working from home since 1pm this afternoon so that I could have a contractor come over and fix loads of niggling things that have been driving me crazy for ages. First, he left like six messages on my home phone wanting to confirm the appointment this morning before he'd show up. Bad news is that I didn't get home until he was scheduled to be here and that meant he wasn't here when I got home. In fact, he wasn't here until an hour and fifteen minutes after he was scheduled to be here. So glad I sprinted from an important meeting with my manager so as to be here on time! Since then, he's spent the last 3-1/2 hours struggling with just the security door which was the first thing on the list! Darnit, at the prices they're charging, that might be the only thing that gets fixed tonight - grrrr.

OK, on to bigger and better things, though! Here is my assessment of Day 2 of TPC...

1. Got two of three meals on program, so there's progress.
2. Still no activity. Will have to make these two days my "off" days on the schedule.
3. Got the 100 ounces of water in handily.
4. My wonderful thing to share is that, even though they cancelled the Padres game from TCB's place of employment (someone forgot to get the tickets - duh!), I am not feeling miffed or insecure in the slightest. He likes me. I like him, he likes me, and I'm not stressing about it. Yay!
5. Still staying positively focused in thoughts about myself. I even had the radical thought that it mightn't be so bad if it took me a while to lose this weight. Can you believe it??? I mean, it's not as though there's an expiration date. You know what the most amazing realization was, though? I'm actually happy and fulfilled right now, just as I am, so I don't need to lose weight for any of those old reasons: to start my life, to find love, to be happy. I can buy new clothes that will fit me until it's time to get smaller, I have five kids who think I'm wonderful, and there's a quiet man just north of here who wants to spend part of his weekend with me, so there's no reason to make myself miserable over a few little pounds.

Did it really take 37 years to free myself from the most painful belief ever? 'Fraid so, but I'm free at last, my friends, and the view is amazing.

Comments

Alda said…
Yay! Keep thinking like that and the world is your oyster. :)
Unknown said…
Wow. You're giving me hope Denise. That big 3-0 is only 5 months away and despite the fact that I always thought I wouldn't have issues with it...I am. Sigh. On the upside, everyone I know, both blog friends and real friends over the age of 30 have told me it really does get better in the 3rd decade of life.

You're just one of the ones that's proving it to me! Hope you enjoy your weekend and good job on keeping up with your TCP challenge :)
betsy said…
Yeah, but do you "like him, like him?" You sound like a giddy school girl, so happy! =) Have a great weekend!
Mamato2boys said…
You know Denise I truely believe that when you are in the mindset you are know, that it is the time when you are able to just take care of yourself and love yourself and the rest falls into place.
Thanks for sharing your ups! You made my heart smile this morning!

Smooches xx
Ang
ABC said…
Glad you're feeling great about things; you sound really happy!
brent said…
i like that mindset denise, very very healthy!!! good stuff.
La said…
Sounds like you're in a great place! I'm also not actively trying to "lose" weight. I'm focusing more on being active, eating well and not gaining anything over the summer. There will be plenty of time for "weight loss" later...
theaddict said…
After reading this entry I have to say I believe you are well on your way to realising all your dreams, including losing the weight.

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