Writer's block

Wednesday morning. I seem to have nothing to say lately. I feel blocked, as though there may never be anything interesting to write about again. Not coincidentally, the binges are back and I haven't been able to exercise yet this week.

Monday night was the Advocacy Committee meeting that I co-chair for the Junior League and it didn't finish until after 8:00 p.m. Last night brought the Community Council meeting for the Junior League and it didn't finish until after 8:00 p.m. Tonight is Gloria and we don't finish until 7:30 p.m., but I still might be able to get in some time on the treadmill afterwards if I can manage to eat before my session with Gloria. If I don't eat first then I'm hungry and tired and it's late and the exercise just won't happen. Tomorrow brings my long-overdue haircut, and it should be finished by 5:30, so I'm hoping to still make it to water aerobics. Perhaps I'll do the 6:00 and 7:00 p.m. classes. Friday night brings a football scrimmage at 4:00 p.m. for Alcott and then his oldest brother plays in his first Varsity football game at 5:30 p.m. No, I won't get any exercise in that night, either.

What I have to keep reminding myself is that I'm still learning how to eat healthy without being obsessive and how to enjoy activity again and you're not perfect when you're learning a new skill. (As a perfectionist from way back, this is not easy to accept.) I think that another contributing factor is the little "happy dance" I did after last week's meeting with Gloria. This would not be the first time that I've watched in horror as I respond to a great week with binges and backsliding. Even more proof that this is a totally mental thing for me and that I need to stick with it because it keeps getting a little bit easier each time to get back on track.

Oh, and if you ever need a pick-me-up, try listening to Number One by Pharrell and Kanye West. Seriously, people, there's no way that you can continue feeling grumpy while listening to this song.


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